Post by Button-Eyed Dragon on Sept 25, 2009 15:04:05 GMT -5
Well, I think my life has hit its low point of the year.
Mainly, I'm near my wit's end with my Pre-Calculus class. My teacher also has ADD, is very disorganized, and I'm feeling like I have learned very little, if not anything, in that class. Take yesterday for example, we had a chapter project to do; just three problems we had to answer that involved graphing calculators and some sort of knowledge we didn't have. Well the day before, she told me that she would go through the problems with us the next day, since the project was due at the end of class on Thursday. I thought, "Okay, no big deal..." WRONG! Yesterday we all found ourselves having to work out problems we got wrong on two tests we previously took (both of which I didn't get good grades on) AND having to work on section review problems on top of that. So a lot of us didn't end up correcting all of our test problems, and we all ended up turning in incompleted projects.
And so today, she gives us back our projects and goes over the entire thing with us, step-by-step, and has us write down what she was writing, and counts that as our project grade. So she basically gave us all “A”s for this project that was due yesterday, whether or not it was finished. That makes no sense to me.
That kind of stuff’s not good for me, someone who’s been diagnosed with ADD since 5th grade, and who has always had trouble when it comes to math. Seriously, none of my other classes are giving me this much trouble. Not even AP English, where we have to read books like "The Great Gatsby" and have to write 1-2 essays a week. My dad basically has to tutor me every night I have homework because the teacher does a shitty job teaching the lesson and I don’t understand the homework, but he gets home late in the evening, and then still tries to work things out for a failing company he’s in charge of. So with him being stressed out and multi-tasking, and me being tired and with my ADD medication worn off by then, I have an even harder time understanding the lesson and we end up bitching at each other out of frustration. So then by the time all that’s done, it’s 11:30-12:00 at night, and I have to get up at 6 to get ready for school. FFFFFFF
And this crap is going on pretty much every day. I need to see if I can switch out for another teacher, because at this rate, I'm either gonna fail Pre-Calc or snap from the constant frustration. -__- But the administrators probably won't let me anyway...
And it looks like I’m gonna be losing at least one more friend. I hang at lunch with the same group of guys from last year, it’s the only time I see any of them during school. Well, one guy I was close with now has a girlfriend (he’s a junior, she’s a freshman, wtf?) and the two of them are usually off in their own lovey-dovey world and ignoring the rest of us. Now it’s gotten to the point where he goes and sits at his girlfriend’s table without even stopping by our table to say “Hi” (though they were here today). I now realize I won’t be seeing much of him again until November, when we have full rehearsals for our school play. And even then, they’ll probably just be off in a corner, cuddling and all that other shit. So he’s pretty much gone, and now we have other people at our table, some freshmen that the other guys seem to know well, and a few are just other girls that they’re probably flirting with. And I’m just there, totally out of the loop once again.
I’ll admit it, I am a bit jealous (I get jealous of things pretty easily) and angry, since that’s usually how I lose my guy friends. And I was told that this guy liked me (it was pretty obvious), I didn’t start feeling the same way until later. But it’s something that’s happened to me all my life, along with not having a lot of friends, so I should be used to it by now.
And to make things 10,000 times better, apparently the “swine flu” has reached our school, as I heard some students have literally left their classes puking. So now I’m at least twice as evasive around people at school than I already am. The last thing I want is to get sick and puke my guts up, yet all around me there’s people coughing and sneezing and the like. Good god, I’m already enough of a germaphobe as it is.
So I’m in that mood where I wanna be alone and not talk to people, causing my parents to start nagging at me once again how I have no social life/friends whatsoever. And not in the nicest of ways, as usual.
Someone just shoot me, please.
Mainly, I'm near my wit's end with my Pre-Calculus class. My teacher also has ADD, is very disorganized, and I'm feeling like I have learned very little, if not anything, in that class. Take yesterday for example, we had a chapter project to do; just three problems we had to answer that involved graphing calculators and some sort of knowledge we didn't have. Well the day before, she told me that she would go through the problems with us the next day, since the project was due at the end of class on Thursday. I thought, "Okay, no big deal..." WRONG! Yesterday we all found ourselves having to work out problems we got wrong on two tests we previously took (both of which I didn't get good grades on) AND having to work on section review problems on top of that. So a lot of us didn't end up correcting all of our test problems, and we all ended up turning in incompleted projects.
And so today, she gives us back our projects and goes over the entire thing with us, step-by-step, and has us write down what she was writing, and counts that as our project grade. So she basically gave us all “A”s for this project that was due yesterday, whether or not it was finished. That makes no sense to me.
That kind of stuff’s not good for me, someone who’s been diagnosed with ADD since 5th grade, and who has always had trouble when it comes to math. Seriously, none of my other classes are giving me this much trouble. Not even AP English, where we have to read books like "The Great Gatsby" and have to write 1-2 essays a week. My dad basically has to tutor me every night I have homework because the teacher does a shitty job teaching the lesson and I don’t understand the homework, but he gets home late in the evening, and then still tries to work things out for a failing company he’s in charge of. So with him being stressed out and multi-tasking, and me being tired and with my ADD medication worn off by then, I have an even harder time understanding the lesson and we end up bitching at each other out of frustration. So then by the time all that’s done, it’s 11:30-12:00 at night, and I have to get up at 6 to get ready for school. FFFFFFF
And this crap is going on pretty much every day. I need to see if I can switch out for another teacher, because at this rate, I'm either gonna fail Pre-Calc or snap from the constant frustration. -__- But the administrators probably won't let me anyway...
And it looks like I’m gonna be losing at least one more friend. I hang at lunch with the same group of guys from last year, it’s the only time I see any of them during school. Well, one guy I was close with now has a girlfriend (he’s a junior, she’s a freshman, wtf?) and the two of them are usually off in their own lovey-dovey world and ignoring the rest of us. Now it’s gotten to the point where he goes and sits at his girlfriend’s table without even stopping by our table to say “Hi” (though they were here today). I now realize I won’t be seeing much of him again until November, when we have full rehearsals for our school play. And even then, they’ll probably just be off in a corner, cuddling and all that other shit. So he’s pretty much gone, and now we have other people at our table, some freshmen that the other guys seem to know well, and a few are just other girls that they’re probably flirting with. And I’m just there, totally out of the loop once again.
I’ll admit it, I am a bit jealous (I get jealous of things pretty easily) and angry, since that’s usually how I lose my guy friends. And I was told that this guy liked me (it was pretty obvious), I didn’t start feeling the same way until later. But it’s something that’s happened to me all my life, along with not having a lot of friends, so I should be used to it by now.
And to make things 10,000 times better, apparently the “swine flu” has reached our school, as I heard some students have literally left their classes puking. So now I’m at least twice as evasive around people at school than I already am. The last thing I want is to get sick and puke my guts up, yet all around me there’s people coughing and sneezing and the like. Good god, I’m already enough of a germaphobe as it is.
So I’m in that mood where I wanna be alone and not talk to people, causing my parents to start nagging at me once again how I have no social life/friends whatsoever. And not in the nicest of ways, as usual.
Someone just shoot me, please.
